(original mixed media painting on wood)
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by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
from Dream Work by Mary Oliver
published by Atlantic Monthly Press
© Mary Oliver
sooooooo, my AWESOME ART JOURNAL course is now finished and is
available on DVD YAY! :0)
*Awesome Art Journal*
Mixed Media Art Journal Workshop
Now Available on DVD!
Art Journals are magical places where all judgements fall away! Your Art Journal is a place where you can create without inhibitions or fear of ‘doing it wrong’. Art Journals are not for making ‘perfect’ art (what is that anyway?), they are for soul expression, a space for you to be, to express, create, to heal, to laugh, to cry! This course will do just that; help you express your soul in creative, expressive and outrageous ways!
“This is a course that will help to ignite your journal creations through different and attractive techniques. Interspersed with some healing techniques that could be integrated, along with the techniques learnt, into your journaling by means of weekly exercises. Everything happens in a gentle and relaxing environment where you can get feedback and find even more inspiration through interaction with other participants.”
~Tere Valenzuela, Mexico
What You’re Buying
Please note: the DVD you are buying is a DATA DVD. The file format of the videos on the DVD is in .mov. This means you cannot watch the files on your TV unless your DVD player specifically plays the above mentioned file format. The files on the DVD can be played on PCs or MACs using either Quicktime (.mov files) or VLC Player.I strongly recommend Quicktime for .mov files though as the VLC player tends to distort the videos ever so slightly.
You get 1 DVD which contain 6 .mov files (about 7.5 hours of lessons in total) and 13 PDF files. A supply list and course outline is also included on the DVD in PDF format. The DVD case has a professionally printed sleeve covering it.
This course ran on my ning network from 8th June 2009 – 12th July 2009 for 56 students. As I am pregnant at the moment and won’t be able to run the course any time soon again I’ve decided to make the course available on DVD so that those who missed out can follow the course as well minus the interaction with myself and other students.
Technical requirements: the .mov files play best in the software program Quicktime. You can also play them in VLC player but I noticed that VLC distorts my videos slightly so I highly recommend playing them in Quicktime (this programme can be downloaded for free off the internet).
Course skill level: Beginner & Intermediate
The DVD contains 6 video files covering 5 weeks of mixed media art journal lessons. Pls note that I have NOT taken out little chats or comments which related to events or circumstances happening at the time.
On the disc you will find 13 PDFs that look at the methods and techniques that were covered in the videos and some of them list exercises and/or homework. In some weeks a healing theme is interwoven into the lesson.
Each video looks at two themes often covering several techniques to implement the theme into your art journal.
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- Ursula Lengyel
“Nice course, especially for beginners. Tam is an excellent teacher. She is extremely patient and will take whatever time is necessary to be sure you understand what she is teaching.”
- Susan Koopmans
“All and a very thorough walk through of most aspects of Art journaling, and in addition most of the techniques can also be used in paintings. The course guides you through enough techniques to keep you going for a long time. Willowing way of teaching is both fun and inspiring – so you better have your materials ready, because you will want to get started as soon as you here her first “Hallooooooo everyone” ;-).”
- Mette Engell
“Tam offers a solid course in art journaling, presented in a playful way that invites participation.”
- Alix North
“It was AWESOME!!!! I highly recommend it to anyone who loves art & journaling!!”
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the day is spent snoozing, drawing and noticing the rain. also, the strumming guitar sounds in ‘both sides now’. joni mitchell’s voice echoes through the valleys of my soul.
the art journal course is now finished and i’m feeling relaxed and ready to do this birthing thing. another 5-6 weeks of waiting, letting baby get bigger and fatter, ha, so that he has all he needs when he comes out. it feels peaceful.
i have small little art projects planned that i know i have time for now; making puppets, working more often in art journal, sewing some bags & pouches, recording a few more songs, some more youtube vids and doing ATCs. also, preparing the art journal course for dvd. but i can take it slowly, no more mad rushing, aaaah. just peaceful.
nero’s at the end of our street (i know evil corporation, but!) do these amazing iced “milk” shakes without milk in them. it’s basically fruit juice with finely minced ice. i can’t get enough of them, so yummy.
we have loads of antenatal classes lined up over the next couple of weeks. we have 3 this week alone. yesterday’s taught me a few interesting things. it’s funny though because every time i ask a question, the lady seems to think i ask because ‘i’m scared’, instead, i ask because ‘i like to be informed and know what i’m in for’. ha ha. it’s all good. they have chocolate biscuits there every session, so i’m happy. ;) we have another one tonight and another on thursday, then it’s 2 a week.
i’m the furthest along of the group (by 2 days, another girl is due on 19th august). there are 6 couples, 3 women know what they’re having and they all are having boys, the other 3 don’t know. every time i’m in the class, the baby goes bonkers, moving and flitting about, not sure what that is about!
yesterday they discussed the best position to have your baby in for birth, head down, back pointing to your belly button (not your spine), and they gave us exercises to help baby get into that position (although, on 2 occasions now, midwives have told me baby is already head down which apparently is a good sign, yay!) it’s all very interesting because, for instance, the lady explained really well how women don’t do themselves a favour at all by lying on their backs giving birth, the end bit of the spine actually gets in the way that way; labour will be longer and more painful. if you’re upright, on all fours or on your knees it’s much easier because the end bit of the spit gets pointed out- or upwards and makes more space for baby’s head to go through. interesting stuff. i’ve always wanted to be able to walk most of the time, i might have problems being on my knees because of rheumatism but i can definitely try to stay upright a lot.
last night, i had a big cry session with andy, all about the body image thing, and andy was so lovely and understanding and he suggested we buy a big night gown and made it so that i was totally comfortable. he didn’t say; ‘oh don’t be so ridiculous, it doesn’t matter what you look like blah blah’, comments like that are SO unhelpful. of course i KNOW it doesn’t matter what i look like and how ridiculous it sounds, but if you’ve been bullied to death as a child over your body shape/ look, the little programming/ conditioning doesn’t simply just poof disappear as much as i WANT that. my rational side understands all this, knows the psychology, has tons of healing and work on it, but, my primal, instinct side still sometimes pushes the ‘survival instinct’/ ‘defence mechanism’ button and screams; NO ONE CAN SEE YOU THIS WAY OR YOU’LL DIE. mmmh, and that type of instinctual stuff, is hard to overpower with rational thinking, also, because when your limbic system kicks in, your rational brain part is cut off, true dat, look it up. there is still a lot of healing to be done on that one, but in the mean time i enjoy finding ways to go round it if poss.
so, andy, just had the best response to this. i said; ‘at this point, it’s just not helpful for either myself or you and anyone else to tell me to ‘get over myself’ (he’d never say that anyway, but other people would), or to try and ‘not make me feel that way’ because the programming and conditioning is so strong. all i want to be able to do is to focus solely on the birth and not have a tiny voice in my head distracting me with how to ‘look best’ thoughts, i just want to totally be focusing on the birth. (i know that when the process kicks in i’ll probably won’t think about, but this programming in me is incredibly strong, potentially as strong as hormones, so i’d rather not take the risk and be as prepared as i can be) so, the best thing to do is to figure out how i’ll feel most comfortable with the way i’ll look, instead of just ignoring it or telling myself how stupid it is, and andy was all lovely with suggesting we buy a night gown and adjusted it on the sewing machine to suit me so that i don’t have to be distracted with the horrible thoughts. i ♥ him so much. :0) it feels awesome to be so understood, held and cared for.
he heard, he understood, he empathised and helped thinking of a strategy to get my needs met.
note; he didn’t give unasked for advice, he didn’t discount my experience or belittle it as unimportant or ridiculous, he just empathised and fully heard/ held me.
i am so lucky.
also; lolcatz makes me sooooo happy
ha ha; “why is it made of warm?” lolllll.
and i did this drawing i’m very happy with, this morning, in my new art journal:
i’m enjoying working with shadows. materials; graphite and white arcylics.
my head is filled with a bunny glitter haze. i’m so tired, tired all the time. i slept 11 hours last night and then another 2 in the afternoon. pregnancy tired is really kicking in now. it is hard to muster up any energy for anything other than sitting down, eating, sleeping and doing light weight art.
a sort of persistent lethargy has come over me and with it a strange melancholy too. i went to the local shop a few hours ago, just around the twilight time and noticed the shimmer of shadow and light and soft floral scent on the breeze, green leaves bobbing up and down slowly and i was filled with a sense of beauty and melancholy.
this afternoon i watched phoebe in wonderland.
a delightfully whimsical film about a girl with tourette’s syndrome who finds refuge in the land of wonder. i enjoyed seeing how the relationship between the drama teacher and the kids developed. reminded me of my time as a drama teacher in sri lanka. i miss working with kids.
i am about to enter into week 35 of pregnancy. andy and i had our first nct class (baby birthing/ breastfeeding class) last night. it amused me that i didn’t learn much new, i seemed to be one of the few people who had read every single website and book on pregnancy, birth, perineums and mucus plugs. ha ha. so i like information and knowing what i’m in for! ;p
though i keep jokingly saying that the birth canal looks too tiny for melon heads to go through, i am not nervous about the actual birth & apparent pain at all. funnily enough, my main concern is around ‘looking as elegant’ as possible. i have body issue hang ups and i just want to ‘look pretty’ while giving birth. it’s hilarious, even as i write this i’m laughing at myself, but seriously; that is my biggest stress point; will i look ok? obviously, i’m not actually gonna care on that day, other stuff, if not just floods of hormones will interfere with that thinking process, but really, that is mostly what is on my mind *now* when people ask; ‘are you stressed?’ physical pain? pah, we’ll see, i’ve experienced so much physical pain in my life, i’m sort of looking forward to it just see if it’s really as painful as they say, but looking like a moaning cow with no elegance or delicacy, now there you have my stressful point, do they have drugs for that? ;)
(my rational mind obviously thinks that it is super ridiculous to think that, however, conditioning and defense mechanisms rarely do logic). btw, i’d appreciate comments on this one to be of the; “i understand” kind, and not of the “don’t be so ridiculous” kind. thank you.
so, in the mean time, i’m plodding along, or rather; waddling along. baby is growing by the minute, my stomach is so huge, it’s like i’ve swallowed 6 basketballs, he’s moving and kicking regularly and he still has a heartbeat according to my trusty doppler.
i’m receiving lovely packages from people for the baby and for me! thank you cindgoesindigo (lj user) for your amazing package with a beautiful handmade necklace holder and music for the baby! :-) also, thank you helen and amy for your baby gifts! big hugs.
we’re about to go into the last week of the ‘awesome art journal’ course and after that i’ll just be sleeping, eating cake, doing light weight art and waiting for this new person to arrive. there is really no more one can do in this state of complete depletion and lethargy. ha. i have to say i’m impressed by women who work up until the last two weeks of their pregnancy!
andy is my rock and my world. i often ponder on how incredibly lucky i am to have found someone who i click with so much. in the past i never quite ‘believed’ the thing we have could be found, the incredible depth of connection, trust, understanding. sometimes i think we are mirror souls or something, and i realise how rare it is for people to find something like what we have. i truly wish it for everyone, though i know many people don’t believe in monogomy or long term relationships, what i wish for everyone is to somehow feel a depth of connection, trust and understanding with *someone* be it a partner or not. :-) it just gives such balance, freedom and grounding to one’s life.
oh we did the registering for wedding thing and we’ll get married on the 20th july. to reiterate; this is a no fuss, low key thing and no one should feel offended for not being invited as this is merely a legal formality to us. we have 2 witnesses coming and the whole things costs us about 40 quid. No dress, cake or floral napkins will be involved, just 4 people and some lunch in a vegetarian restaurant. :) ha.
so that is me. must go to sleep now. oh also; i have the craziest dreams, one had george clooney in it being horrible to me… crazy stuff!
oh and, quite a few new paintings in A4 journal, click on image for bigger versions:
one of THE funniest things i’ve ever seen.
kevin hart – “i don’t like ostrich’s”
“Of course, the universe is gradually slowing down and will eventually collapse inwardly on itself, according to the laws of entropy when all its thermal and mechanical functions fail, thus rendering all human endeavours ultimately pointless. Just to put the gig in some sort of context.” ~Bill Bailey (i ♥ him)
i found some time for sewing yesterday. i really wanted to do bags, puppets or thai trousers, but needed more time and fabric for that, so instead i made two pouches! it was much fun making them, with lining and everything. :0)
i read a book in spain called “bad things (don’t just happen to other people)” by michael marshall, people were raving on about it, how good it was and what not, and i found the book a real disappointment (and i’m easy to please), the story didn’t really resolve, throughout the book i kept wanting to understand what had exactly happened and then by the end i still didn’t really know! weirdly, however, i did really enjoy his style of writing, just not so much the story and plot line. these are the passages i liked:
ok, freshly cut and varnished toes, and i post this specifically because it is REALLY really difficult to cut and paint your toenails with a pregnant stomach in the way!
and these are some pregnant pictures of me in my fullest hippo-like glory, i actually don’t like how i look much, but i’m posting them anyways as a sort of affirmative/ acceptance practise move, also, look at the pretty nature, that too was devil’s dyke in hove.
today was a bit of a bleugh day in tam’s head. not quite sure how and when it happened, but some darkness settled in and before i knew it i found myself crying over nothing and everything. hey, it happens. crying must be done sometimes. :-)
andy encouraged me to going for walks with him on devil’s dyke which is this amazingly beautiful nature area in hove. i reluctantly agreed (was much more in a; hide my head under my duvet kind of mood but went anyway) and took my new d80.
it was breathtaking, both nature and andy, look at him:
and, after our trip to devil’s dyke, i did finally manage to record a song! :0) this is me singing ‘northern lad’ by tori amos.
free mp3 can be downloaded here: www.willowing.org/music.html
oh! i want to buy a appalachian dulcimer! it’ll be a string instrument i can play! (i can’t play guitar anymore due to my RA hands you see).