the universe pays attention to you

the universe pays attention to you

i had an epiphany the other day. i was tidying our bedroom busying myself with the mundanities (yet profundities) of doing the laundry. i was musing over a depression i’d been experiencing a month ago. on and off i still felt pangs of the same emotions coming up once in a while. the depression with feelings of anxiety, dread and fear was often caused by worrying about illness and death, either my own or my loved ones’. i stood in front of the closet, hanging up one of my garments and realised that one of the things that made me so sad about death is the seeming ‘aloneness’ of it all. it seems such an ‘alone’ experience, and so definitive. death seems cold, empty, alone and meaningless. it’s as if with you ceasing to exist, so does your relevance.

then, my eye caught the stunning sky above the south downs (our view from the back of the house is amazing). there was a big grey cloud with a big crack in it and the sun was shining through it with a fierce radiance. it was odd, but at the same time of my viewing the sun shining through, i thought to myself; you think you are alone when you or someone else dies and that you are not longer relevant, but what if this simply isn’t the case? what if, each time someone dies, the whole universe pays attention?

and as that thought flooded me, and as i imagined how every soul that died was carefully being cared for and noticed and relevant (to the universe) as they passed, hairs rose up all over my body and i felt so calm and at peace with that thought. it was true epiphany moment for me and gave me such solace.

so now i choose to believe that. when we die; the whole universe pays attention. :-)


so hallow! how are you? i haven’t been around foreverages i know. we’ve been having a very tough 2 months with dylan who has just become worse and worse with his sleep habits. this week we are finally seeing some improvement, but for the last 2 months he’s just been waking up every 2 hours or so again driving me slowly but surely utterly, deeply insane. my only saving grace was andy who’d take him from 6 in the morning which allowed me to sleep until 10 getting another 4 hours or so. it has seriously been a nightmare.

on top of that i have all sorts of work related tasks that i can’t seem to find the time for. we now have a childminder come round to the house 2-3 days a week, but even with her coming i find it hard to get things done! crazy.

anyway, i managed to do a little bit of art here and there. i’m working on a cute little owl, a wall hanging and did the above mixed media piece which was fun doing. i’ve also finally set up my piano and hope to record a song soon. but everything is just taking so much longer to organise and do.

but but but, even though having little dylan completely earthquaking our life around, look at his smooshie face and how wonderful he is!!! ->>

ooh arrh :0)

he’s now pretty much crawling and getting all over the place. he’s also doing a lot of babababab dadadada -ing very talkative and just a very delightful little creature (apart from his sleeping probs but we’re getting there).

here are some more recent pics of his (he is 9 months now! time flies like crazy!) ->

my angel


oh hello i'm dylan and i'm pretty

and here is a pic of the three of us (we hardly had any of us 3, finally here is one);

familia mason

in other news; andy has to go to lebanon for work in june, he’ll be away for 4 whole weeks. :( no fun for us particularly because he won’t be able to follow all the changes dylan will undergo, but it’s good for the work experience and needing the money… dylan and i will go to holland for 2-3 weeks which is fun as we’ll get to see all the family again. :)

so that’s me in a nutshell more or less!

hope to write a bit more frequently again, but not sure if it’s doable, let’s see. hope everyone is well out there. ♥

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And the winner issssss …..

And the winner of the Fabulous Faces DVD is …..

Number 13 -> Lorrie Mello (elbowgrease)

(not such an unlucky number now eh! ;))

Congratulations Lorrie – please send me your mailing address: willowing [at]!

People who were put in the draw;

On blogger;

1. Phoenix xox
2. Evangeline
3. Pat
4. Kelley
5. Vicki
6. Kitty
7. Loz
8. Brigitte aka Scrappassie
9. Sunny Crittenden
10. Odd Sox
11. Debra
12. kunstzinnigdagboek
13. Lorrie Mello (elbowgrease)
14. Kimberly Myck-Rawson
15. Greta
16. Nolwenn
17. Marcie
18. elena
19. kim
20. Amanda’s Altered World
21. Violet Parr
22. Odd Chick
23. elaina
24. Mishi

On twitter (I lost most RTs for some reason!! :( I tried to get everyone who RT-ed to send me their names again, but don’t think everyone who RT-ed in the first place read those tweets, my apologies if you got missed out of this draw, I don’t know why twitter made my RTs disappear!).

25. Marylin
26. Rhomany
27. Rainbowztwit
28. Rischa
29. Deb
30. Malene1986
31. Kathleen Tanguy
32. Sandra Lisenba Conko

On livejournal;

33. lj user = writemethesea
34. lj user = folkchick3
35. lj user = carnivalnights

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Fabulous Faces – Now Available on DVD!

Hullo all!

My portrait course Fabulous Faces is now available on DVD! :)

In honour of the launch I will be giving away 1 copy for free!!!

To win;

1. Follow this blog.
2. Leave a comment on this blog to be entered into the draw! (If you’ve already bought the course and you win the draw, I will refund your money).

The draw will be held on Monday 26th April!

Fabulous Faces DVD – Course Information

*Fabulous Faces*
Mixed Media Portrait Art Workshop

Now Available on DVD!

Have you always wanted to create pretty portraits? Are you fascinated with drawing faces but can’t quite get them to look the way you want? Then this might be the course for you! Learn how to draw and shade a front facing portrait as well as a 3 quarter and a profile one! In addition you’ll be learning about adding extra elements to your piece and background integration as well!


front sleeve DVD cover

Student Feedback:

"I loved this class. Not only was the work presented in an easy to understand set of PDFs and, more importantly, wonderfully made videos…but Tam, as instructor, comes across as a truly caring and nurturing person. I’ve never before taken an on-line class where I felt as if I was in the same room as the instructor…and that she really wanted her students to succeed and feel good about themselves. Thanks Tam, for a wonderful learning experience.
Irene Watts
Las Vegas, NV USA

Scroll down to read what other students have said about the course.

$55 + shipping


What You’re Buying

Please note: the DVD you are buying is a DATA DVD. The file format of the videos on the DVD is in .mov. This means you cannot watch the files on your TV unless your DVD player specfically plays the above mentioned file format. The files on the DVD can be played on PCs or MACs using either Quicktime (.mov files) or VLC Player.I strongly recommend Quicktime for .mov files though as the VLC player tends to distort the videos ever so slightly.

You get 2 DVD discs which contain 9 .mov files (about 9 hours of lessons in total) and 7 PDF files. A supply list and course outline is also included on the DVD in PDF format. The DVD case has a professionally printed sleeve covering it.

April, 2010

This course ran on my ning network from 25th January 2010 – 7th Marcy 2010 for 105 students. Though I might run this course again at some point, I’ve decided to make the course available on DVD so that those who missed out can follow the course as well minus the interaction with myself and other students.

Technical requirements: the .mov files play best in the software program Quicktime. You can also play them in VLC player but I noticed that VLC distorts my videos slightly so I highly recommend playing them in Quicktime (this programme can be downloaded for free off the internet).



The DVDs contains 9 video files covering 6 weeks of mixed media portrait art lessons. Pls note that I have NOT taken out little chats or comments which related to events or circumstances happening at the time.

On the disc you will find 7 PDFs that look at the methods and techniques that were covered in the videos and some of them list exercises and/or homework.

The course goes over 3 diferent portrait positions (front facing/ 3 quarter & profile) and also looks at adding extra elements and background integration.

Course skill level:
Beginner & Intermediate

Course Outline


Student Feedback
(with permission)
"If you’ve never had ART training before but would like to try out to see if you can bring out that little artsy side of yourself, you’ll be amazed how far you can go with Willowing’s course. She runs this online Art workshops in a very safe and encouraging environment. She gives you extensive content full of information in her high quality videos and you get to network with students. She gives special attention to every single student in a caring manner. It’s really amazing and I highly recommend taking one of her workshop."
– Sung-Hee (Regina) Hong
Toronto, Ontario, Canada
"A very well put together course, covering many aspects of portraiture in an easy to understand way, with a direct line to the instructor for tips, tricks, and helpful critiques. "
– Emily Earl, Chatsworth, CA

"the course was the reason why a stayed awake till 1pm… to watch the new video ;)

step-by-step tutorial on how to draw faces and a guide on how to use different materials"

– Nicole Walther

"Hummm… Enlightening. Wonderful and useful advice. More like a guide to help you explore your creativity no limits. Tam is generous with her time, her positive communication skills. Overall… I’ll take another course with her in a snap!"
– Isabelle Lauzier,
Montreal, Quebec Canada

"You’re gonna learn to draw portraits easily and without stress because Tam is a lovely girl who takes time to explain and give all the details you need."

– Peggy Petit
Paris, France

"Fabulous Faces is a brilliant course, if you are interested in drawing and painting then you really should do this course."

– Julie Stenning,
Forest of Dean, UK

"One of my biggest handicaps with drawing the human body has always been faces, so I have always stayed away from faces. This course has given me the freedom to try, make mistakes and try again, to the point where I am now comfortable to draw faces. The teaching was comprehensive, and very easy to understand. This was also the next best thing to being in a classroom. Learning at my own pace meant no pressure, and feedback always encouraging. A very pleasurable course."

– Kelly, Japan

"I was amazed how much I learned so fast. The shading help and drawing tips were exactly what I needed. Tam is an awsome teacher and lots of fun."

-Kathryn Bernier, Bangor Maine, USA


$55 + shipping

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days 14, 15, 16, 17

arrgh, i’m behind again! oh well, i have a good excuse; dylan is just NOT sleeping lately, resulting in me being a total zombie. i HAVE kept up on tumblr though, here are days 14, 15, 16 & 17!!

Day 17.  An art piece – I know it didn’t need to be mine, but I liked what I created today. "Girl" as inspired by Igor & Andre :O)

Day 16. A song that makes you cry.

“Seasons in the Sun” by Terry Jacks

Particularly this verse;

“Goodbye, Michelle, my little one, You gave me love and helped me find the sun, And every time that I was down You would always come around And get my feet back on the ground; Goodbye, Michelle, it’s hard to die When all the birds are singing in the sky, Now that the spring is in the air, With the flowers everywhere, I wish that we could both be there!”

Also; “Leaving on an airplane” by John Denver

Day 15 – Something that is currently over-rated.

I wanna say Amanda Effin’ Palmer but that’ll probably get me into all sorts of trouble. ;) She seems like a friendly lady, no doubt, but I just don’t get why some people are absolutely devoted to/ obsessed with her. Now Neil Gaiman I get. AFP not so much.

I apologise in advance to anyone I’ve deeply hurt by admitting this! ;)

Day 14 – A non-fictional book.

“The power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle. One of the most significant books I’ve ever read. • • •


Man! Time flies! 




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