.reasons why i love life.
we’re moving! :-) we found a 3 bedroom semi-detached house in brighton (a little more inland than we are now). it has a huge garden with a pink blossom tree in it, the rooms are spacious and the living room is big too. we’re so excited! it will give us a lot more space than we have now and we really need it with dylan who brings so much stuff with him!
otherwise, sleeping has been very tough in the last week and a half. even though he’s now 13 weeks (nearly 3 months old), he’s actually become worse sleep wise! they say that babies tend to sleep for longer in the nights roundabout this time, but dylan’s has become worse! for the last week and half he’s woken up every 2 hours! it’s really tough when that happens. i can cope with 2-3 days of that, but more really means i walk around like the living dead. last night he did a stretch of 3.5 hours which was encouraging, but it may just have been a fluke again. we’ll have to see. andy helps out here and there feeding him formula, but we don’t want to do that too often, particularly now that he’s just had his 2nd set of vaccinations. i want the breastmilk to help boost his immune system … so we go on. it’ll change, i know. so i’m too down about it. :-)
i’ve also been going through a phase in which all the suffering in the world just really gets to me. i couldn’t even watch the news without bursting into tears reading about boys raping boys, then; children with leukemia, people being murdered, suffering in asia etc. at times, i just don’t know what to do with this information and can get quite down because of it. i feel so helpless and incapable of changing it.
byron katie & eckhart tolle helps with this though, a lot. last night i had a real clarity moment; when i read about children with leukemia and i don’t want them to have leukemia, i suffer because i resist reality. that way, i cause more suffering on top of the suffering that already exists which is useless and only makes the world a more miserable place. if i accept reality, i am in a place of strength, calm, love and acceptance and can do a lot more to alleviate other people’s suffering.
i’ve done some new art in misty mawn-esque style, i’m on her current course which is inspiring. so far no new techniques for me though, but that’s cool, i enjoy just being on her course to see how she melds all her work together, i look forward to when she’s going to add portraits.
i also took this macro shot of dylan’s beautiful face yesterday which i just love! ->
and, i’ve been making little clay sculptures which i’ve enjoyed doing, but must admit; painting on rounded surfaces is much harder than on flat!! :D
i have also been making a masquerade mask! but i’ll only show one pic of it because i’m doing an art video of it and don’t want to spoil all the fun! :D
pretty no? to me it looks venetian. :-)
lastly, i am now selling a willowing 2010 art calendar (10% of each sale goes to the charity; ‘friends of the earth’) and willowing christmas cards! but i will be doing a separate blog post announcement for those soon. if you want to take a peek in the mean time clicky on the links.
big love to everyone out there.